The journey began with a moment of surrender, a moment when I told him that I didn’t want this journey but I would take it, a moment when I asked him to do an amazing work in me so he could do an amazing work through me. God’s will for many is so hard to accept. If suffering is all that is required to effect this change, I offer myself with my whole heart to You that I may suffer all the martyrdom and torments that ever have been and ever shall be suffered in the world. But when we mature, we are to leave childish ways behind, mature in faith and life for God alone, not in pursuit of the affections of the world any longer. I came to understand that I am his at the very core of my being. There are some who once thought partaking and obtaining the world’s pleasures was what life was about…but until they met God…and I mean really met God, now choose to rid their life of perusing that nonsense even in the slightest way and peruse salvation–loving God and seeking His will–instead. But anything that isn’t to know, serve and love God is a sin. If we can obtain enough of God's grace, we can have fantastic peace during the most intense horrific suffering, but we must have the faith to surrender our will to God's for the salvation of souls. Coming to know our hidden pride is a blessing of untold measure and will awaken our senses to the sins we really love... Jesus died to open up the gates of Heaven, take away original sin and all of our sins and their consequences before our baptism. These poor people simply didn’t believe me and felt they deserved the world as their entertainment…but God wants us to love Him, not the world, not some of the time, but all of the time. Read the whole thing. The lie we live with thinking we truly love God when we still don’t is what kills us. Therefore, if you love to suffer in silence, don’t treat everyone like you…most aren’t at that point spiritually and still need to “feel” loved by man to not become depressed when sick and needy, since they don’t have the faith in God to receive His magnificent consolations to suffer like Christ. We can’t. Our lack of perfect peace is from our still lack of faith. Yet, we are easily coaxed into desiring much that isn't God and loving God only some of the time, giving the rest of our heart to the world... Penance is something we do in reparation (to make right our wrong) for our sins. We are akin to an empty jar that wishes to be filled with the other. Psalm 31:21 says, “Blessed God! Yet, Jesus alone is to be our life–our everything. But God is so generous. In the world I have known, the American Midwest, the word desire has been used too often in the context of lust and sex. Eventually, however, through the Father’s relentless pursuit of me, I surrendered. It’s a great time of silence and solitude, a time where I can meet the Father, dedicate my day to him, and soak in his presence. I began to trust him to lead me into it. For Eternal life we need a truthful desire for God’s will alone, hating our own (which sadly most don’t have), and to obtain perfection, we need not only a desire for God alone but that desire has been put into action so perfectly, we now relent our will completely that we no longer allow our sinful will to move us, only God’s grace (His will) moves all of our thoughts, words and deeds–then our will is perfectly united to God’s, and we have perfect love of Him. He does not give you your heart’s desire. After all, his way didn’t work out so well for me. We don’t suffer like Christ or the saints at all. How Can I Be Happy With All of My Shortcomings? Oh, how far are we from a saving faith! Do we go to the TV, Work, Friends, Shopping, Sports, Dining Out, Beach, Internet, Books, etc. It means we don't seek sin and only seek His will. It takes much grace to love to suffer in silence and we have to work up to gaining that kind of faith and humility. The Catechism also says we must confess all mortal and venial sin prior to receiving... For most, no. God willing, after reading this article, we will develop a clearer understanding of what are some of the sinful things we choose (desire), that pushes away God’s love so we can repent and change. Truly not one thought, word or action is supposed to be outside of love of God through loving our neighbor. Without humility we can't gain self-knowledge or correct knowledge of the Way. Believing In Christ as Lord is the Beginning of Faith, How to Trust in God and Remain in Peace When Things Go Very Wrong. God allows our children to leave us, and they are supposed to go off to serve God and/or their spouse, not their parents any longer. That needs to be our goal in life to: to suffer for the love of God so to send grace for the salvation of souls. I longed to love and be loved. “Come to me, all you who labor and are burdened, and I will give you rest. I also found ways to focus on him throughout my day. Therefore, we need to begin the journey towards removing our attachments and habitual sins, one sin at a time, until the Spirit enlightens us to all of the sins we desire, so we can seek God’s grace to sincerely hate those sins and truly desire God alone. Oh, the blessing in the disgruntled selfish teenager who rejects our love and guidance for self-love. We have allowed sin to make sin to make us into needy, complaining people that don’t tolerate anything but perfect comfort. That is the underlying factor to all sin we choose. There have been other moments of surrender as well. Lets look into what we do for happiness. We need self-knowledge.Â. To do this we need to first acknowledge that we don’t love Our Creator above all nor truly desire Him alone as our actions have proven. And the only way we can even come close to knowing how much attention someone needs is to pray and learn from our errors. When the pain in our souls, as we long for God, is so great that we simply can’t stand to be without God…like we are devastatingly parched for thirst from working tirelessly in the sun…needing water (God)…then we are coming to desire God alone. Focus. When we want for nothing, even though we don’t seek God as our source of happiness, God will be our source of joy, but we won’t desire for Him to make us happy–even though He does–we desire NOTHING, but God’s will. Our desire for God comes mainly because we have tasted and seen that the Lord is indeed good (Psalm 34:8). If we can’t find God’s true love on earth, we won’t find Him when we die. Have we spent our life learning how to let go of the world (children, spouse, friends) or are we devastated when any of them leaves. Our heart is supposed to only desire to doing things that help us to know, serve and love God–to do things that aren’t for self-love, but love of Him, but most of us live greatly deceived. I had lost my ministry, my marriage. 3. Our desire must be for God alone. Imagine never wanting to find happiness with the world…just God. The more worldly things, power, attention, etc. Maybe it’s a new car, or fame. But we have to really want to find God, because this path is incredibly harder than it is for a religious. But even with our desire for God being so great, we relent our will (the desire to die) for God’s…so if He desires us to live long on earth, Thy will be done. Even what seem like acts of charity towards another (as I explain)…are not to love God, but to really to love ourselves. God is there too wagging, smiling, and waiting for us…but since we don’t know Him like we do our dogie, we can’t wait for our dog (family) instead of God, who is constantly waiting for us. or do we go to God. I began to see the purpose in the pain I had suffered. He will change your desires in amazing ways. What Sins Can I Continue to Commit and Still Receive Holy Communion? God is blessing us with an opportunity to see what we love, Him and His will (cross) or what we want…love from others. We can love our family, however we must desire to know, serve and love God in them. My future was uncertain. Some people might make an attempt to go to God, especially in moments of great pain, but the pining for their attachment, and not wanting or trusting in God’s will, prevents them from receiving all of the love God wants to give them. Publication date : … We can easily see what we have made our life, by how we react when we they depart. What would we do without our phones or friends! We need to almost running from the attention from man (if possible) so the devil doesn’t have an opportunity to grab a hold of us and drive our hearts to love the doting over and compassion so to strip away the sacrifice for souls. Wow! There is much confusion as to what the after life is going to be like, but we can learn the true teaching of each so we can aim for the correct goal and get the assistance from those in Heaven and truly help those in Purgatory... Our hearts of love want to comfort others but from our mis-guided love, much of the time, we lie and claim we can read the soul of another, and tell the grieving their loved one is in Heaven. Eight Years of APJ, and What’s Ahead. If The Hammer could give our team the “want to” for basketball, surely God can fill us with a greater desire for Him. It was immediately following those moments of surrender that I began to see and experience God moving in a mighty way. We want God to make us happy, and we even want our happiness with bounds of worldly pleasures (people, power and possessions) as well. Presumption of salvation is a horrible disease spreading in today’s generation. But we have to leave them (metaphorically for some)–remove the attachments from our lives–and live for God alone, while still living in the world. But on this side of heaven, joy must be fought for every day. Not that God doesn’t come to us through man to support us and show us compassion when we need it so we can one day obtain the faith we need to suffer like Christ; He does. We are longing for happiness. Our happiness, our desires mean nothing. But if God, for reasons unknown to us, chooses to bless us with anything, we don’t desire those blessings. Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life (Psalm 139:23-24 NLT). Listen to stories of how God is at work in someone else’s life. For my yoke is easy, and my burden [cross] light” (Matthew 11:28-30). Can I be forgiven of some sins but not all sins? We must increase our faith. Will an Indulgence Take Away the Punishment for My Sins? This makes our will, by nature one that seeks to love ourselves (sinful), from having a great inclination towards sin, which is anything not loving God…and if we aren’t truly looking to love God, we won’t. “The souls in hell having been found at the moment of death with a will to sin, have with them an infinite degree of guilt; and the punishment they suffer, though less than they deserve [because of the infinite degree of guilt from one act of self-love], is yet, so far as it exists, endless.”Â. Truly, if someone were to pick us up and drop us off onto a deserted island, we just know we would go crazy without our gadgets and gizmos, without out our friends and family, without out our job and sports, what ever it is that we can’t live without, since we don’t yet have a true relationship with God and the perfect joy and sanctification God alone provides. We can’t live without love coming from either God or at least man. “You must understand this, that in the last days distressing times will come. We don’t have to enter into a religious life to be saved; we can hate the world and still live in the world. But wanting for nothing but God, means we want nothing for ourselves…our mind is focused on loving and serve God. But please understand, what seem’s impossible to remove right now and horribly challenging for even let go for a moment, won’t last forever. 1. But the goal for those who seek to grow in humility, is to not seek attention from anyone, but to run from it and run to the Lord instead. “God, I want to want you more than anything else,” I cried out from the depths of my pain. Oh, hard hard it is to truly say every word for the benefit of another. Plus, our hearts still choose other things and don’t always go to God…we still want some of the world. How do I tap in to my true heart’s desires — the ones that lead me to His best for me? In English, to be satisfied means to have your fill of what you desire, expect or need. We need to let go of our kids, spouse, friends and all in the pleasures in the world that we crave for affection and happiness before our hour comes or all will be lost. They are like a cute dogie: always there smiling wagging its tail filling us with the love we crave. For example: if we have to work extra hard, we tell others to seek their pity; if we are sick, we notify others seeking their compassion. What a blessing a young death is for the faithful! Banishing the pleasures of this world that we seek is one of the most challenging aspects of growing in holiness and for most it takes years to truly rid all that we crave that isn’t to know, serve or love God since we cover most of our cravings so we don’t even see them. To remove all that we desire which isn’t good, we need to come to an awareness of just how often we crave love and things instead of God. No one comes to the Father except through me [Jesus]” (John 14:6). Sadly, since we have little grace, we don’t run to God but rather we seek happiness/peace through the compassion and pity of man or countless other way to ease our pain. “Every satisfaction offered to the senses, which is not for God’s honour and glory, must be renounced and rejected for the love of Jesus Christ” (St. John of the Cross). But our goal in life isn’t to cause someone to bear the fruit of sin, but our goal is to help people grow in holiness. Seeking to be loved, care for and have attention from others simply doesn’t lead to Life. The pull is just so great. Her greatest desire is to be a channel of God’s comfort and encouragement. And that seeking of love from them is really hard to let go of, since we love to feel loved. This isn’t easy since the devil has darkened us to the reality of what is a sin and what isn’t. “Lord,” I began, “there is truly nothing on this earth that compares to you. You can read more of Dena’s experiences with her Great I AM on her blog Dena's Devos. Sadly however, for most of us, when we don’t get our love from our kids, we run and make friends, find a hobby or something else to fill the gap in our heart, when GOD IS WAITING FOR US. Delight. Tragic! How happy are the saints who renounced all things for God! Sadly, some of us never grow up; we still want to play and be loved by others; we don’t seek the one and only true Love of our heart…not with a desire the will win Him. I suddenly began to come face-to-face with the ugly reality of my heart, to become aware of the pride and selfish ambitions that ruled my actions. That is why it is very important to visit the lonely because they need the affection from us since they don’t know how to obtain it from God yet. We must grow in faith to desire God alone. Jesus helped those in need. Do we, the parent, still expect our children to honor our every wish; do we still tell them what to do; do we still wish them to entertain and serve us? It can’t be for it is only by grace that God will be enough…without it, it simply isn’t. The reason is Genesis 3. We won’t even want to mention the things we seek out for happiness/consolation which aren’t God, and will try to justify their need and how they aren’t really sinful because they satisfy our need for love and happiness so perfectly. We shouldn’t be jealous of the families that hang out and do many fun things together. We want nothing and simply try to love Him in return for such undeserved gifts. As a new year dawns, consider that God’s word offers great treasures on a first reading, and many of its greatest ones as we reread year after year. instead of spending our time seeking how we can know, serve and Love Him. “In fact everyone is obligated, to this loving cleaving to God as necessary for salvation, in the form of observing the commandments and conforming our will to the divine will” (St. Albert the Great). Even though we will still be rejecting Him, He will still bless us with something as long as we don’t completely push Him away. We must sincerely cry out to God for strength and forgiveness with a humble heart and become a man like David “a man after my [Jesus’] own heart”; truly willing to “carry out my [Jesus’] every wish [not our own will]” (Acts 13:62). Which means we should desire God more than anything else. 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